Coulda Woulda Shoulda

This is a whole new world I am so excited about. This week has been zoomy and exhausting, exhilarating and uplifiting, neat and fun. I will write more later but I just wanted you all to know, my head space is in cloud 9.

So how does this work? I have never been an "outted" blogging employee, especially one that works in the writing industry. I have learned many a lesson from Dooce and am not really looking to get myself canned over my words. I guess this really will become a place where I share my outside-of-work stories. I just don't want to start self-censoring because I'm worried what my boss will think if he reads that I'm PMSing. Do we live in a society that separates personal from work life? Perhaps my boss will enjoy my insighfulness at this page. Perhaps it will give him a little too much information into who I really am. Because who are you really at work? Are you really you? Do you really show everything about yourself? Your dreams? Your hopes? Your fears? Your frustrations? I know I don't. So tell me, HOW DOES THIS WORK? The only bloggers I read are pretty much self employed and so I don't really have any concrete examples of how it wo...

Since Thursday, I have been trying to figure out the best way to write this entry. I have spent the last 3 days calling all the important people, drinking copious amounts of alcohol and sleeping away the stress. I have come up with various scenarios, cute jokesy blog entries, long sappy ones, metaphorical far-too-deep ones, even short and sweet ones. It seems I have been trying to think about it for so long that I have thought my way out of actually writing anything clever. What I can say is: Be picky. Don't settle. Follow the little voice in your head. Go with your gut. Really believe it. Believe in yourself. About a year ago, I decided I wanted to work in the book industry. I didn't care in what capacity. Writer. Marketer. Editor. Event Admin Assistant. If I had been given them all on a platter and asked to choose, it would have been marketing because then I could have the best of both worlds. Continue doing the marketing tasks I enjoy - event planning, web co...

It feels like it's been a very long time that I have been self conscious when I first speak to people at work. It feels much longer then almost 2 years. In Canada, I was the friendly communications girl, who doubled as an HR person when new people arrived in the building. I was always the one who would be super-smiley, starting up a conversation with anyone who happened to be in my vicinity. I always tried to remember something about everyone, so that when I saw them again in the staff kitchen I had a "topic of conversation" to spark up with them. I can't do that here. I couldn't do that in Leeds. It's not because I'm now aware that the American-Canadian "way" comes off as a bit fake to the dry-wit Brits. I am not afraid to continue being me. There's no reason to change my personality just because I've changed my postal code - er postcode. And yes, I still make sure every person who serves me, opens the door for me, t...

I have been quite silent I realize. And as usual, quite cryptic. My "one shot" went really really well on Thursday, so well that as much as my heart will explode with joy if it continues to go well, I am really really satisfied and feel that there is nothing more I can do to make this one happen. Entertaining my university roomate from home on the weekend. It's been fantastic. I love being a tourist in my own city. And I love dishing with a girl that I don't feel uncomfortable around. I hope to have more words next week but my fuzzy party brain is simply concentrating on getting through my Monday.

"You better move yourself in the music you...you better never let it go. You've only got one shot do not miss your chance to blow cause opportunity comes once in a lifetime" - Eminem (sorta - to be honest, these are the words I hear in my head, they may note be EXACT but today, they motivate me) Today is a day of opportunity. It feels like a one shot day. Bull by the horns. Caution to the wind. Cliche day. Fingers crossed and fulled speed ahead. ******* If you want to read something a bit less cryptic, our SelfAcceptance issue of Mosaic Minds has gone live! Lots of good pieces put together by busy people who were working over holidays:)