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Getting in Good with the Ghosts

I am no closer to clarity but I think I am farther away from puking than I was yesterday.

You can go on doing your regular routine, quite easily, until you suddenly remember you have a decision to make.

I would be prone to anxiety on a regular day and our adventures have actually helped to curb these feelings.

I find myself less and less scared and more prepared to take things on.

It's not that I'm not petrified, it's that I know at the end of the day, anything is better than being dead.

This may sound morbid. Or insulting. But I don't mean it like that.

I'm a practical person, even more so living with someone like D.

I have never looked at situations with much hope or belief that someone else will make it all make sense.

So when I tackle a problem head on, I like to be as realistic as possible.

There are people who are dead who would have loved the opportunties that come my way.

And so who am I to not explore them?

So, I'm doing it for the dead.

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